Saturday, October 11, 2008

Just a little ramblin'...well, maybe ranting

Ever have one of those days where you just seem to be on a roller coaster? You know the kind, you can't classify it as a bad day, but you sure couldn't classify it as a good one either. Well, that has been my day.

Here's been my roller coaster ride:
(going up) I woke up in a great mood!

(down we go) Then, first thing this morning I weighed myself and to my horror the number on the scale was one that I swore to myself I would never hit! I don't know why this was such a surprise to me since it hasn't been too much lower than said number for quite some time now, but it sure slapped me right across the face! That's it. I can't do this anymore. I have to buck up and slim down. It is a necessity. So, starting today, I am following the Weight Watchers Flex plan. I am writing everything down and counting points. This is going to be hard, I have a looooong way to go with this, so if ya'll would pray for me it would be much appreciated.

(YaY! I'm going back up!) Once I decided which path I was going to take on my weightloss journey, I felt very good and very determined. I felt like I could take on anything! I cleaned house, cooked, ran errands and even parked at the far end of the parking lot at the store in order to walk more.

(and back down) Later, a guy that I dated once upon a time looked me up on MySpace and got a hold of me. I really loved this guy (and still do to some extent), but things didn't work out. Well, when this guy got in touch with me, at first I was ecstatic! I loved hearing from him...that is until I learned that he was wanting to rekindle a relationship. I am married to a wonderful man and together we have two awesome boys; I am not in the market for another man! So, today I had to let my friend know that I could not in good conscious continue talking to him knowing that he wants more. I wished him well and told him not to lose sight of God then told him goodbye.

(up again!) Had a very productive day. Hubby came home to a clean house, a wonderful homecooked dinner and lots of smiles and love from his bride. After dinner I settled in to get some knitting done. I am making a pair of 'house socks' for my best friend and I can't wait to get them done. I finished the first sock just a bit ago...wooo-hooo!

(and down one more time) My oldest son Jeremy, who is almost 14, got upset out of the blue for who knows why. One minute he's happy, cuttin' up, having a great evening and then !bam! major mood swing! I asked him what was wrong and I get, "I. Really. Don't. Want. To. Talk. About. It." Well, excuuuuuuuuuuuse me! Normally I would have nipped the attitude right in the bud, but tonight I just didn't feel up to laying into him. I guess it just kind of stung because we have such an awesome relationship, that for him to bottle up really kinda hurts my feelings, ya know?

(up, up, up) I walked away and worked on the dinner dishes. I looked over the food journaling that I did and I did great today! So now, I am going to go to bed before anything else happens to bring me down! lol